Stress is not your friend. Most especially when you are autistic and can't really handle what you're getting.
Tomorrow I'll be getting an apartment, until then I'm fretting my brains out. What I could use right now is a friendly dog, square miles of meadow, and a ball. The three together should keep me distracted and wear me out. The last would give me a good night's sleep.
In any case tomorrow means a big change in my life, I can only pray that I survive.
In most RPGs violent interaction is known as "combat" Which is what it is when you get right down to it, but a term such as "combat" is most often associated with what are known as wargames, or with the family of formalized conflicts most often associated with war.
There is an alternative. The word here is "fighting". It's basically the same thing as "combat", but has different connotations from "combat." Both combat and fighting basically mean the same thing, a violent struggle between two or more parties, but fighting is really understood to mean a violent struggle between two parties on an informal basis.
For this reason I have decided to refer to violent struggle in an Adventure Guide as fighting. Since that is what the participants are essentially doing, fighting. It's my way of telling those playing that they are not involved in a wargame. Rather, what they are involved in is an adventure occurring in an imaginary setting while playing imaginary people.
Also be aware that while combat can occur between groups of people, fights happen between individuals. You could have a single combat involving units of thousands, but when fights are involving you are going to get thousands of fights. That can take a while. My advice here is to focus on a few people, as is what most often happens in life. Just remember that adventures involve individuals, not mobs.
So remember that an adventure guide cannot be a game, for ADs are meant for and written for individuals.
I'm officially no longer homeless, though I can't move in till this Tuesday Jan. 22nd at 9:45am PCT. I'll be paying $291 a month in rent, so I should be able to afford an iMac in July of this year.
In other news; I'm about ready to pass out. Staying up is being a struggle, so once this gets posted I'm heading back to the tent to see if I can catch up on my sleep.
With my apartment I'll be able to see my cardiologist and urologist about my heart and kidneys. In addition, IHSS (in home senior services) can do things like keep the place neat and prepare meals, so I'll be eating better and I may have more energy.
There aint none. Not really. What you have are skirmish miniature games where the participants can play roles if they wish,but playing roles aren't necessary.
Pretending to be someone else doesn't have to involve killing things and taking their stuff. You don't even have to succeed at anything, for often the mark of an individual involves how he handles failure. And very often your opponent's success can mean success for you.
As a Game
Now RPGs aren't impossible, just dang difficult. It isn't goals you need to achieve, but a measure of how well you played your role. At no time can that ever be objective, for playing roles is a subjective thing, and judging how they are played is perforce subjective as well.
Nor can such an effort ever be balanced, for even a small world is going to be complex, sometimes complicated, and they shall always be that which is better or less than you. Just remember, where a dragon may slay a kobold, a swarm of kobolds will always boss a dragon around.
I'd druther treat them as guides. Guides to living a life in an imaginary setting. While they're not really happening, you can treat them as if they were happening. For nothing has to be real in order for us to treat it as real.
So I'll be writing about adventure guides in this blog; guides to adventure in which the mechanics of how a world works are presented, and advice on how to handle adventures in an imaginary world.
At the moment I'm not doing so well; the Housing Commission is dawdling on my apartment, and I have an infected foot. So I'm in a homeless shelter while taking a strong antibiotic. An AB BTW that rather nearly knocks me out.. I'll be seeing my PC (Primary Care) tomorrow, so there may be some hope there.
Keep in mind that when you're fighting an infection a lot of your resources will be going towards the battle, and rebuilding the damage done.